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Take, my brethren, the prophets, who have spoken in the name of the Lord, for an example of suffering affliction, and of patience -James 5:10

Funny title? Hehehe
So I’m sure some of you have been wondering why I never put up of any of my graduation pictures up or even talked about it at all…I even got some graduation greeting from you….well….I didn’t graduate 🙁
Remember my post from last year? I(check it here) I guess what I feared the most ‘befell’ me
I was so depressed,for about 3 weeks ….I couldn’t even go an celebrate with my friends who did…I was always crying,I would have messed up their day.
It was more emotional for me coz I believed my faith didn’t work…yes I wrote the papers i failed myself,God didn’t come down from heaven to write it for me ( I wish tho’..Lool) but some other people had more failed courses and got cleared ( they gave testimonies) worst of all my course mate I was I encouraging got called a day before graduation she was graduating…I ALMOST DIED!!!
I asked myself sooooo many questions ……faith could still move mountains right? …. God was on my side right? ….all my prayers and fasting wasn’t in vain right? Seed sowing? God showed me the right thing in my dream right? Did I praise Him right? Is he angry at me? What did I do that was so bad? I’m even more spiritual than these people getting what I was meant to have,is it worth it?

My loves those thoughts are wrong!! When you find yourself questioning God…look to Him and praise Him! It’s going to be hard- but that why it’s called the sacrifice of praise! 😀

I had to go back to the book of Job,he was the only one I could relate to,even when bad news was coming from every angle,do you what Job did? He worshipped!!! (Job 1:20) and he didn’t charge God foolishly (like me) Job 1:22 BUT things didn’t get better my dear brothers and sisters! My guy was affected with boils! I infect my eyes too sef from all the crying…now the boil has turned to keloid on my lower lid *SIGH

There’s a verse I never really paid attention to (Job2:10) “shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips”!!!!! Don’t use your lips to get high or make out with random people..use it to praise God!
Most of the ‘ crazy’ things I’ve done in my life was a result of me not getting what I wanted so I’d get angry BUT the emptiness still remained and the time I didn’t get what I wanted,I turned to God and I’ve never looked back! 😀

One time I watching TBN and I learnt from Joyce Meyer ( I’m the head of her groupie club btw her) And she said faith isn’t just to get what you want it’s also to help you through the times you don’t get what you want! Always trust that God will take care of you!
You need to read the faith Hall of fame in HEBREW 11 some of the them held on to their faith even till death! You need to apply all the faith you can while your here on earth coz you won’t need it in heaven( we will have it all )

Besides there was so much to be thankful for…my Gramz( who came all the way from Yankee for my grad) and my mom where sooo cool! I cried when my grandma said ‘she has failed before’ so it’s nothing ,I even started talking to my dad again ,the keloid on my eye is reducing..Lool ,im a lot more dependent on the holy spirit and many many many miraculous things happening…

So I didn’t write this for you to sad for me( I didnt send you) I’m super happy! Looool ….I want to help someone when ever she/he feels like things aren’t going their way…don’t turn your back away from God,He is the only that can bring you out 😀

Always remember all things work together for the good of those who love God Rom8:28

See you in my next post 🙂

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